The dogpiling did not help. That thread is now a mess that is beyond my ability to go through it in an orderly fashion.

I'm sorry for the backwards apologies I made.

Most of this mask came from interacting with a group that probably wasn't good to interact with, and I apologize for gauging that you were like them. They would say hurtful things and then get offended that I didn't respond. Then they would demand apologies when I pointed out that it was hurtful. Apologizing for being wrong when I was right seemed to appease them.

You were really starting to seem like the type that would rather have that than me disagreeing with you. I apologize for hurting you with that criticism. I am seeing a lot of my attempts to explain myself being shut-down and ignored, and people reading sub-texts that aren't there.

I think that you are attributing my problems with understanding to malice when it is not. What you seem to be attributing to argumentativeness is that I'm prodding you to say things another way or clarifying things to make sure that we're both on similar pages. I need to know that the other person knows where I'm coming from and to really understand where they're coming from. I'd like tips on how to get things clarified without making it seem like I'm rejecting advice.

At this point I would like to apologize properly, but I'm going to need people who want apologies to step forward and say what the problem is instead of me having to guess.




Iximaz, I'm sorry that it took more effort to try and help me than just pointing out the first obvious problem and call it a day. I did not mean to get “snippy” when I pointed out what was causing the problem that I already knew about. Is it “snippy” if you point out some water on the floor and I say there's a burst pipe that we gotta stop instead of grabbing a mop?

Unless you can remind me of a good piece of advice I didn't understand, missed, or forgot about, stop screaming that I'm not following any of it. I had forgotten about the not taking it literally part, so I ran a prompt through a couple rounds of translate so I couldn't read it. That didn't help, but translating it back to English changed it enough that I can work with it. For Desdendelle's advice that I should find a way to make her do something she doesn't want to do, I'm still deciding if mind-puppeting or just threatening to kill her is funnier even though I don't want to take either route.

The only ableism I'm complaining about is Desdendelle constantly saying that I'm not trying hard enough. It's not the amount of effort, it's the approach that I'm using, and Kelly might still be a bad character.

However, I think that Desdendelle made a bad assumption. “I didn't know a single person who likes being told that exactly what they're doing wrong.” “Unless I'm missing something here, you're basically going "since you didn't praise what I wrote, you're meen and you're picking on me because I have a learning disability!"” What I'm mad about is that I got yelled at and made to feel stupid for needing too much help. And I'm a little peeved that he thinks I was looking for praise when I hate how that file turned out. The only time praise is constructive is if there is an element that should be used more. I enjoy when the criticism has something that I should honestly correct.

On the Navy point, I do not wear my spouse's rank. Unless we have kids, my importance is less than that of a therapy dog. Also, I think his rank is immaterial to yours unless you're actually working together. I didn't have any intention of actually telling him, so I'm sorry for saying so just because I thought it would appease you. He did clarify the UCMJ, which does put the contractor's use of old pants into a gray area. I've decided that it's fair that JulyFlame and other military people can bring up the subject, but I can't. I have seen the stress of the job do strange things, and I think that speculating about what the stress is, beyond too many “that's what she said” jokes, is not safe.

I have autistic traits, and had to start with a self-diagnosis. I am not formally diagnosed, and won't be until they address the depression, so I'm not saying it is positively austism, but they have ruled out dyspraxia, and I've always “flunked” ADHD tests so they can't tell if I have it or not. I also thought I had PTSD at one point, but after a few years it went away on its own, so the real PTSD must suck.

I say this as justification about why I'm having trouble figuring out the right thing to say, and why you're having so much trouble figuring out why I'm doing certain things. Having an inability to naturally understand social interaction is much different than being depressed.

7. Everyone deserves an honest second chance - which means, initially, a chance to stop, explain, and/or apologise. This means that, if you believe that someone is engaged in any violation of the Constitution, but particularly Articles 1-3, it is critical to make sure they understand what they are doing wrong, so that they can make amends. Explain it to them yourself, or ask a third party to do so - but the key word is explain. Telling someone to shut up because their opinion is unwanted does not constitute a chance.

From the beta page: “or at least giving it some very careful thought before deciding not to take it.” I apologize again for not properly acknowledging that I was thinking about the advice they were giving me.

If not an apology, I think that I'm at least owed knowledge of what they said to JulyFlame other than “giving others a difficult time.” Did they share anything about what I said in the email messages? I was trying to explain myself.

Constantly shouting me down when I'm trying to explain feels a lot like shutting me up because you don't want to hear it.