Subject: Crippling fear
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Posted on: 2017-04-13 10:09:00 UTC
There's this crippling fear in my mind that prevents me from leaving groups or joining them, (discord servers, following someone, friending them etc.). This fear has led me to some events that have had less than desirable results. I wonder if anyone else has this fear, whether it's common or not. So.
Does anyone have this very fear?
I forgot to add the main part of said fear. The main part is when you contact someone you know, and that someone cannot remember you, no matter how hard you try, they cannot remember you.
There we are!
But I don’t call it fear; I’m just overly shy. I might never have posted on this board if there hadn’t been this outsider hauling inaccurate accusations around to explain why they didn’t like the PPC, so I just had to step forward to show another outsiders view, before I made a proper introductory post.
Also, I don’t think of it as crippling. Over the years, I persuaded myself that I like to be the nerd in the ivory tower, and that I don’t want lots of friends or to be considered a valuable member of a community (and then the PPC happened). That’s probably not an advisable way to follow, although it worked for me, with lots of luck.
Fortunately, I don’t have that nightmare. I don’t care whether I’m remembered and recognized. (But then, why do I use the same name all over the internet, unless the site insists that I can’t have a space in my name, and it’s too many letters anyway?)
My greatest fear is that I unintentionally say something that offends people I want to like me. Not talking in my native tongue here doesn’t help with that. So, far too often I prefer to say nothing at all. Which probably causes that people do not know me well enough to actually like me. Yeah, I’m aware of my shortcomings; I’m working on them since nineteen-fiftythree.
HG
I have some problems with anxiety -- not in those exact circumstances, but the general topic is familiar to me.