Subject: Sad to see you go. Do come back some time.
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Posted on: 2015-10-09 03:08:00 UTC
(*hugs*)
This is one of the kindest, most open, most forgiving groups on the internet. I can't believe you've done something that would mean having to leave forever. Here's hoping you feel able to return some day. (And besides, your agents owe our agents a party! Don't forget that!)
So, how do you begin thing like that? Say that you need time to think things through? No, I had that already... Apologize for what you did wrong? Nah, did that too... Well then, I have nothing clever to begin this with.
I'm leaving. Maybe for a long hiatus, maybe (most likely) forever. The point is - I messed up, I did something really, really bad. I've hurt one person I never wanted to hurt. I thought I would be able to work things out, and eventually everything would turn out to be good. Apparently, it didn't. For the last week I felt broken, I felt alienated, untouchable. Like I was carrying leprosy. I had two great people talking to me at that time, helping me, telling me to be patient... but I don't think it did a lot, plus I don't want to bother them anymore.
When I discovered the PPC, the last thing I wanted is to make enemies. Well, six months in and I made two - one was my fault, the other decided to condemn me for entirely different reasons, which they decided to never share with me. Is it fair, I don't know. Maybe it's normal to shun people like that. As it was revealed, I don't understand people and I completely lack common sense. I would like those two people to not to indicate that it's them - last thing I want to leave behind is a morality war. Turns out you can't be everyone's friend, even if you try.
That being said, I have one more apology to the victim of this whole incident - it's my fault, and I don't deserve any mercy from you. And on that note I will finish. To anyone with higher power in the wiki - do whatever you wish with my Agents. Kill them, delete them, they're fair game from now on.
Any joke for the end? Any funny jest to make myself remembered?
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No.
...but I understand if I don't. Good luck walking the road. May the crows all bring you shiny things.
While I know we haven't talked much recently, my email is still open for whenever you'd like to talk (and on whatever)! May Life be good to you, and may our paths cross again, under better winds. ^^
(*hugs*)
This is one of the kindest, most open, most forgiving groups on the internet. I can't believe you've done something that would mean having to leave forever. Here's hoping you feel able to return some day. (And besides, your agents owe our agents a party! Don't forget that!)
I agree with ... basically everyone who replied thus far. I pray that things eventually work out between you and those you've hurt.
All the best in your future endeavors.
Nobody deserves mercy. It's something given, not earned. That's the whole point.
It's up to whoever the victim was to decide if s/he'll forgive you. It may take a cooling-off period, but I hope that eventuality the incident will fade and you'll be able to come back with a lesson learned.
*Hus* You're a great person.
I think Hardric put it best what I wanted to say, so let me just say this: I don't know whoever it was that you hurt, but I think that eventually you should be able to reconcile with them and I hope you will be able to return someday.
Farewell is reserved for the end of the story, and a story can only have one end...
Seeing the way you updated Venus' and William's profiles, this hiatus is something serious, and you clearly think that this is the thing you must do now. However, let's me toss my two cents on this matter.
You said you hurt some people. I don't know who are these people, so excuse me for intruding, but I think that misunderstandings are unavoidable when you're part of a community, because we're all living people, who have emotions we don't always control, emotions who can lead us to hurt people in the heat of the moment. It's not a good thing by any stretch of imagination alright, but that's part of being together with other peoples, you cannot make no mistakes in life, because that would mean you do nothing otherwise, and that would be wasting life that spending it locked up in his room. Like a great man said through his character, you would just end up like Mrs Havisham, tormenting some Pip in an attempt for making up this mistake.
Peoples know they aren't insane when they can doubt about their sanity. Peoples know when they're wrong, and then can change for the better, when they know something went wrong.
I cannot really be talking about lessons here, being a newbie and being part of an internet community for the first time, but I think that leaving forever would be a tragic mistake. Take some time thinking about this, makes peace with yourself and to these peoples you wronged. Apologies exist for this very reason.
Takes the time you need for sorting this matter, but I'm sure I can't be the only one who will be waiting for you to return.
Once again, goodbye, but NEVER farewell.
Hardric
Never say never. I've been gone years and yet still find myself back here. Who knows where the wheels of time will take us.
Still, best wishes for whatever your future holds.