My time has come. by
Matt Cipher
on 2015-10-08 16:38:00 UTC
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So, how do you begin thing like that? Say that you need time to think things through? No, I had that already... Apologize for what you did wrong? Nah, did that too... Well then, I have nothing clever to begin this with.
I'm leaving. Maybe for a long hiatus, maybe (most likely) forever. The point is - I messed up, I did something really, really bad. I've hurt one person I never wanted to hurt. I thought I would be able to work things out, and eventually everything would turn out to be good. Apparently, it didn't. For the last week I felt broken, I felt alienated, untouchable. Like I was carrying leprosy. I had two great people talking to me at that time, helping me, telling me to be patient... but I don't think it did a lot, plus I don't want to bother them anymore.
When I discovered the PPC, the last thing I wanted is to make enemies. Well, six months in and I made two - one was my fault, the other decided to condemn me for entirely different reasons, which they decided to never share with me. Is it fair, I don't know. Maybe it's normal to shun people like that. As it was revealed, I don't understand people and I completely lack common sense. I would like those two people to not to indicate that it's them - last thing I want to leave behind is a morality war. Turns out you can't be everyone's friend, even if you try.
That being said, I have one more apology to the victim of this whole incident - it's my fault, and I don't deserve any mercy from you. And on that note I will finish. To anyone with higher power in the wiki - do whatever you wish with my Agents. Kill them, delete them, they're fair game from now on.
Any joke for the end? Any funny jest to make myself remembered?
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