I am leaving the PPC. Probably forever.

I first joined a couple years back, roughly May of 2010. Stuff happened, and I wound up never posting outside my intro thread. Then, in October of 2010, I came back.

It felt good to be in a community that was so welcoming and warm, especially since at the time I was living away from home at a boarding school full time, and had just moved halfway across the province.

After a couple of months, I figured out what felt good about it.

I felt at home. I felt like I could trust the people here.

I am the first to admit that I have problems. I've gone on hiatus many times in the past to deal with whatever was going on with me offline. I'd generally return in a week or so.

This time is different.

I no longer feel at home. I no longer feel safe. I no longer feel wanted.

It's back to how I was when I first came here.

Somehow, the PPC has reached a point where it is too accepting. Where people like Jacer, who offend and hurt people are allowed to stay. In her Permission thread below, I linked to the original thread that started all of this.

Ever since that thread, I have never felt safe when seeing Jacer's name anywhere on the Board. I do not feel safe with somebody who is so firmly against me as a person.

Look, I get it. Second chances are important. But you know what? When somebody hurts somebody else, and hurts them badly, they better damn well earn that second chance.

Jacer did not.

She showed no signs of remorse, or even of acknowledging that she hurt people in that thread. Nor did she when it got brought up again now.

That is not a sign of needing a second chance.

She should never have been allowed to stay. None of the current mess would have happened if somebody had stepped up and said "No. Hurting people is not okay here. Especially not if you show no signs of feeling the slightest remorse for what you did."

And yet she was.

She was allowed to stay on, given a second chance.

Which she used. She was given a third chance, which she used.

She was given a fourth chance.

A year later, and she still shows no sign of caring in the slightest that she wasted her first chance.

This should never have gotten that bad.

Why is it that we immediately told DoctorHello that they were not welcome in their intro thread after what they said? To the point where that thread no longer exists?

What is the difference here?

Why is it, that when I say "No. It is not okay that you hurt people" I get told "NO. YOU MUST RESPECT THE OPINIONS OF THOSE THAT HAVE HURT YOU."?

From people I trusted and respected, no less?

I'm sorry, but I cannot stay in this mess.

I cannot stay in a place that not only allows people to continue hurting others, but yells at the ones who have been hurt.

The PPC is welcoming and friendly to the point where you cannot even think of telling somebody off.

And in the end, it is no longer a safe place.

Goodbye.

ADDENDUM: Letting people like Jacer stay is just as bad as taking part in the bullying.

Please learn something from my leaving, although I honestly doubt that will happen.

I'd like to say it was good knowing you all, but the past few days have kind of ruined that.