Yes, you were a tad over the top in your application, but you aren't the only one. Lots of us here have been a bit scary when it comes to certain topics (Such as that list of weapons I asked for a while ago), because we enjoy it. You won't be able to fix the reputation if you run though. It just gives us a bad feeling, and makes you feel like there's no lace for you here. All you need to do is actively post around here for a little longer, and you're good to go. That's all. You wanted to write in the PPC so badly you wrote extremely long profiles for your Agents. All that work will just go to waste if you head off now.

Look, it may have escaped your notice, but you're being very melodramatic. If you're looking for sympathy or drama, you're quite simply not going to get it. Either leave for good, or shape up, admit to your mistakes AND move on from them. We won't hold it against you (hell, I did the same thing once myself) and you can give it another goal.

Sincerely,
~Err...

Okay, yes, you screwed up. Fine. So what? Running away doesn't do any good, and we're not the type to hold a grudge against anyone who's willing to try. If you leave now, your 'reputation' (for lack of a better word) will stay exactly as it is. Stick around, be polite and engaging, and you'll earn the respect you wanted - and which, quite frankly, I think people around here want to give as soon as it's appropriate. Publically beating yourself over the head isn't something that either party wants - we take no pleasure from seeing you say "I was wrong" fifty different ways.