Subject: I can relate to this.
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Posted on: 2015-03-14 02:42:00 UTC

"Doing my damnedest not to go into total shutdown" is kinda how I feel right now, and frankly, I'm not doing a very good job. The world is big and scary, and bad things happen to good people, and I'd really rather just stay asleep, thanks. Plus, I'm pretty sure my anti-anxiety medication is sort of pushing all my emotions aside, so although I've been on the point of tears several times yesterday and today, with the tight throat and pricking lids and everything, there's been no waterworks. I sort of want to cry, because that's appropriate, so it's a little disconcerting that I can't seem to actually do it.

On the other hand, I gotta keep doing job search stuff, because paychecks are important, and that's hard enough without tears. On the OTHER other hand, being more or less emotionally numb isn't helping much with my motivation, either.

It's all just generally shitty. Basically what I'm trying to say, though, is we're all stuck in our own heads, and there's not much we can do about it, so I don't think we need to feel too bad about framing things from our own point of view. It's the only one we've got, after all, however inconvenient it may be. The trick is to remember that everyone is trying to get by with this narrow little window on reality, and biological equipment that's out of date and frankly lies to us a lot, and they're probably doing the best they can, so it's best to be patient with them, and ourselves.

*offers hugs*

~Neshomeh http://i66.photobucket.com/albums/h259/TangledWebs/PterryMemorial.png

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