I'm sorry. Your concerns were misrepresented, and I reacted to a flawed understanding of your feelings.

However, I'm more sorry you opted into the Shipfest at all to begin with. It's clear that you have trouble separating yourself from fictional (mis)representations of yourself. That's a skill we do expect people to learn, particularly in the context of fanfiction, which often includes fictional representations of the author—but it takes practice. If you're not there yet, and if you weren't in a great place emotionally on top of it, a game that specifically involves a (mis)representation of you using your own screenname rather than a distinct character's name was no place for you.

I don't know this happened, but given your obvious reluctance and reservations about the whole thing, let me say this: if—that's if—Twistey prodded you into it at all, that was wrong of her, and you guys will have to work that out between yourselves.

If not, good. Please learn from this experience and use it to make wiser decisions for yourself in the future.

~Neshomeh

. . . is that people are written wildly out of character. At the risk of disillusioning people, I've never gone anywhere near a corset, and have no plans to change that. But that hasn't stopped people creating the epic story of Iximaz and Me, corset!BFFs (I don't even remember how that started anymore. It's just a thing now).

You don't have to participate in the Shipfest if it makes you uncomfortable--and I would surmise, from the repeated and complex limitations on your participation, that it very well might. It's not at all obligatory and nobody will think less of you if you opt out.

I will note, however, that hS was not "messing with" you, as alleged in Twistey's original post. It wasn't some sort of juvenile hazing ritual; hS isn't that way inclined. It was just an OOC Shipfest story, like so many others, with literally zero personal ill-will. Hopefully that makes things a bit clearer.

--Kaitlyn

You say you can't just "drop" it, but what do you mean?

Do you mean that

a) You're itching to post more of it?

b) You can't stop thinking about it?

Neither is it a debate, so I won't argue with your various points of accusation.

Here's what I will do:

1. I will apologize for being condescending. I was, and I should have expressed myself better. I'm sorry.

2. I will take you out of the category "child" in my head and think of you instead as "teen or young adult."

3. I'll now take off the kid gloves and tell you in frank language what that means.

That means my patience for you treating Nazis, Hitler, the Holocaust, and other related concepts as fun playthings ends as of this post. I am not comfortable with it, and I don't want to see it in PPC spaces anymore.

It means I expect you to understand that trivializing things that have hurt and are hurting people to this day is not okay, and that no one here is obliged to tolerate it—not when Neo-Nazi and other white supremacist terrorism is a global problem and people are being killed in its name. Your feelings are not more important than those of the people being persecuted in the name of the discriminatory ideals espoused by the Nazi party and its leaders, and I will not apologize for saying so.

It means I expect you to exercise the ability of a teen or young adult to moderate your actions, and to stop bringing those things up in any way, shape, or form. That includes Wolfenstein and other media that features Hitler, Nazis, Holocaust, etc. You will keep your fascination with those things strictly to yourself from now on.

It means that if you don't stop, I will consider it a violation of Article 3 of the Constitution, and I will call upon the Board to make a decision about how to handle it.

I hope I have been sufficiently clear.

~Neshomeh

Did I hear a "let's get this over with" come out of your mouth? About an apology? After you were done lecturing me about how I was trying to get an apology over with so that I could feel better?

I get a sense from this that you know the right thing to do, you just don't always live by your own rules. Hey, that's better than if you didn't know the right thing.

-Twistey