Subject: Ooh.
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Posted on: 2019-07-24 13:19:00 UTC

And oh boy.

So the last time we saw the two of them together, back in late 2015, they agreed that they could go back to neither the friendship they had as Rina and the Reader nor the friendship they had as Xan and Arinorelivandrisar. They agreed to try to move forward and, basically, redefine how they stand and who they are to each other a third time.

And now we leave that and head into unpublished headcanons. On my part, I just can't see this version of the Reader being able to completely move past it. It was a pretty big--and horribly recent--thing for her: over the course of about two years, she made it to HQ, struggled with finding a place there while grieving her planet (especially once she found out it had actually burned), had her TARDIS starting to die on her for a bit, and suddenly found out that, no, Arin hadn't actually somehow survived the Time War--she had been born a human. Which meant the Reader, at some point in the near future, was going to send her to her death. And she couldn't tell anyone. And then that happened, basically, and then she miraculously came back, and, really, how do you go about forgiving someone for lying to you your whole life before saving it? How do you forgive yourself for betraying that same friend's trust in return and sending her to what turned out to be a more temporary death than expected?

All this to say: even three to four years later, I just can't see the Reader managing to rebuilt anything past a sort of semi-cordial civility. I'm sure they've tried, and there's probably a friendship with Zeb (and Alex?) going on in the background, but the Fourth Reader just...isn't someone who can let the big things go, most times. She still detests Rassilon, she still hates what she had to do, and she still can't always look at the Aviator without being reminded of just how thoroughly they betrayed each other and why and how desperate and alone she felt while doing it.

And, of course, add residual memories from the Time War to work through...

So yeah. I don't see that relationship being properly mended until both of them regenerate, and we get the Fifth Reader and the Fourth Aviator...both of whom are pretty much just easygoing, joking blond guys on the surface. It gives them an actual fresh start and some new common ground. They get to ditch some of the angst and become bros, more or less. But, well, we're not quite there yet.

~Z

PS: Let me know if you have further questions or if there's some aspect I didn't cover and should! Apart from that, looking forward to seeing what you come up with.

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