Subject: To me, it's not so much that you're scary.
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Posted on: 2013-06-22 13:19:00 UTC

Trust me, I've met plenty of people in real life who I regret ever spreading one word to, and one nearly took my life for no discernable reason other than "because he felt like it."

For me, it's more that I'm a victim of "emotions don't translate well over the internet" - you probably don't mean any harm in what you say, but due to the pure neutrality of the written word as opposed to the spoken word, I sometimes misread your posts as being arrogant or trying to come of as authoritative in the wrong way.

The life I lead has taught me to seriously dislike people of arrogant or false-authoritative natures, so I sometimes find myself getting frustrated or cynical when I see a post by you, and I have to reel it in.

So, yeah. I'm not scared, and don't feel less in thy holy presence; it's more that I sometimes lose you in translation and unintentionally make a villain out of you where I shouldn't.

It's similar with Neshomeh at times - my mind misreads her words as being coddling and oversweet, or little more than a sugar-coated backhand, when she's probably doing nothing of the sort, and so I have to force myself not to see an overbearing librarian.

Likewise, I imagine some people see me as some clumsy, bumbling, headstrong know-it-all sarcastic dolt who breathes in bile and breathes out apathy, when in reality I can barely even get mad at anybody unless they really are doing something worth getting upset over. It's just not in my nature to see the bad in people unless items shoved in my face - my humor is more scathing than my real-life personality, and I sometimes walk into stupid mistakes that get people up in arms and put me on the defensive, that's honestly all it is with me.

So, to recap my rant: it's not you, it's the internet's crappy emotional output.

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