Subject: Seconded. (Warning: tl;dr below)
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Posted on: 2014-08-20 03:39:00 UTC

I don't know if it would be inappropriate to bring up that "I came out to have a good time..." meme from a few months back, but I'm sorry to say that it's pretty much my opinion about this whole mess in a nutshell.

I really didn't want to speak up about this, I really didn't. I wanted to think of the PPC Board as a caring, tolerant community, but it really feels like I was burying my head in the sand until this came up. Given how little I know of this individual, I honestly don't have that much to say on this matter, and I didn't want to say this out loud, but the way everyone has been responding to their actions legitimately terrified me for a moment - of course, I'm not really calling out anyone, but still, it could very well have been myself who could've been attracting so much ire.

To explain in greater detail, I actually exhibited the exact same problems as zdimensia here up until a few years ago. Sometime during 2011, I joined a group on deviantART that was about a collaborative crossover story involving multiple artists and writers, and specifically I somehow managed to shoehorn my way into the group of main admins. I insisted on having my way, writing other peoples' characters into my own stories, and inserting my own characters into theirs. When they called me out on this, I responded with sarcasm and spiteful comments, and when I specifically asked one of the major admins to write something for me despite their being busy, said admin put his foot down and, after failing to convince me to stop what I was doing, he eventually banned me from the group in its entirety.
Throughout most of 2012, I ended up in a standoff with the people concerned. I tried everything from apologizing to actually working towards a creative effort, but not only did I inherently fail to accept responsibility for my actions ("Oh noooo, why did they have to ban me? I didn't deserve it because like, I'm so creative and special!"), but I also slavishly worshipped their ideas too much to think of my own. So these people went the extra mile to criticize and eventually publicly libel the art and writing I had produced at the time. The whole ugly business was settled at the end of the year, and we've gone our separate ways, but that doesn't change the fact that it still happened. If there was any one good thing that came of it, the fact that these people got upset led me to realize that my behavior was hurting their feelings, and it's why I'm much nicer and more considerate these days.

Mind you, these very same attitude problems I had back then were the exact reason that the one and only badfic I've ever written (which I plan to spork once I get permission, of course) turned out the way it did. That and wanting to bone a certain Violet Parr and turn her into a dinosaur.

Ugh, I did not want to have to revisit all the ugly memories of the above incident, but the point I'm trying to make is that no matter how much zdimensia here is apologizing, IT'S NOT GOING TO CHANGE THE FACT THAT SHE DID ALL THIS UNLESS SHE OWNS UP TO HER MISTAKES. I know from experience that people can't and probably won't trust your apologies unless you make good on them. Especially on the Internet where we can't tell whether they're genuine. If she can prove, however, that she can communicate in a civil manner, admit that she was wrong in saying the things she did previously, and do her research before rushing in with her metaphorical guns blazing, I'd be willing to call a ceasefire as well. I just don't see that proof just yet.

So, to zdimensia: If you really are sincere, and judging from what I'm reading I won't discount that you're genuinely trying to back off, I have a feeling you've still got a lot of ground to cover. I've spent most of my time since joining actually reading up on the PPC and all related literature, so as to get an idea of what I'm up against once I request permission to start writing missions. Needless to say, I will kindly advise you to do the same, not in the least because it'll certainly help you avoid flak like this. And honestly, six months to a year should give you plenty of time to do exactly that.

And in the meantime, I know you want this put behind you, and honestly I feel the same way, but like I implied above, actions speak louder than words. So while I'll be willing to forgive you if you make good on what you've said, I don't think I'm alone in that I can't trust you to create content for the PP...il you can prove that you've got what it takes to handle the job.

Tl;dr: Seriously, kid. MAN UP.

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