Subject: Apologies/I feel really stupid
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Posted on: 2017-03-19 04:52:00 UTC

First off, I have not been hiding from this issue. I've just been at a friend's house for the past two days. I was very busy there, and I wouldn't have been able to give this discussion a thoughtful response.

I apologize to July for not trying to stop the screenshot from being posted. I was only thinking of it in terms of evidence, and not how it would be an invasion of privacy. This is a very serious deal. I'm very, very, sorry, July. I should've known better. Since I don't even know you at all, I shouldn't have made any comments on the matter.

I apologize to the Discord chat for not helping. I have literally only been part of the PPC for 34 days; add that to the fact that I just vomit out words without thinking when I'm feeling emotional, and you have someone who really should not be part of such an important discussion. In fact, I was pretty aggravating.

I apologize to Ix for being part of this discussion. I don't know enough about Ix, about the Brink incident, about the Glarn incident, about mental health, or really any part of this at all! For crying out loud! Why on earth did I think I could help! So yeah, I feel really stupid. Sorry, Ix, I shouldn't have made myself part of something so important and emotional with so little information.

Of course, the discussion on the Discord is different from the one on the Board. Everyone is supposed to be part of the Board discussion (at least, that's what I'm gathering). But I could have stayed out of the Discord one.

On the subject of bans:
I think Tomash should get a month-long ban at the most. I do think his actions were serious. However, they were meant to help, and that does matter.

Some people have called for Aegis's ban. That's just dumb. He's Ix's boyfriend! I would be worried if he didn't have strong feelings about this! It's only right for him to be agitated about their welfare. Yes, it would have helped for him to take a step back. But that goes for literally everyone on Discord who participated in this fiasco.

For everyone else on the Discord (everyone else participating, that is), I just have to say that we all let things get really out of hand. We should be embarrassed. Though I don't think any bans are in order. Except for one, and that one would be mine. Looking back on it, I realize I acted irresponsibly. As a person with very little information, I shouldn't have tried to be part of the initial argument on Discord. I may be overreacting, but I feel very ashamed of myself, and I think a temporary ban is just.

Lastly, I think mods are a very good idea. I do like the thought of a community where everyone can be responsible. We cannot do that. We clearly need some people who can propose votes, and announce the final decision. For instance, right now there are a million different ideas floating around the Board about what to do. Consequently, no one knows what to do. We're just milling around, voting on this or that idea, and it all comes down to nothing happening.

Sorry if that was slightly incoherent. I'm tired, ashamed of myself, and frustrated with this mess.

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