Subject: Re: calls for my ban
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Posted on: 2017-03-18 21:42:00 UTC

Many people feel that I should be banned from the PPC, either permanently or temporarily, because I posted July's real name and face in the Discord chat on Thursday. I again acknowledge that what I did was completely unacceptable, and I cannot overstate my regret that I invaded another PPCer's privacy in such a drastic way.

I acknowledge that there was a remote possibility that what I did could have posed a threat to July's life, and I am horrified that I contributed to the possibility of that. I do, however, feel that, given the rather limited distribution of the screenshot (at most, say 30 people, none of whom I believe would want July killed, could have seen it before it was deleted, and I expect that the number of people who actually saw the information that didn't already know it is much smaller), several people have rather overstated an extremely improbable outcome.

I would like to attempt to describe what I was (or, more importantly, wasn't) thinking when I posted that screenshot. At that time, the chat was considering Iximaz's allegations. I wanted to provide a piece of evidence that would help the community decide whether or not Iximaz was right. I had been discussing that screenshot privately for several days, and, in my mind, it was the "conversation between July and Iximaz". In my emotional disarray at Iximaz's possible death (which was still entirely possible at the time) and how I might have helped cause it, I didn't think through what I was posting. I forgot that screenshot contained July's real name. Not paying attention to that was a terrible mistake, and I yet again apologize to JulyFlame for what I did. It shouldn't have happened.

Now, to those of you calling for a permanent ban, I would like to request my Article 7 second chance. I have stopped (or, in this case, attempted to mitigate the damage). I have apologized. I have come to a more complete realization of what I did. I would like to make amends. I beg all of you to allow me to do so instead of driving me out forevermore!

I don't know what form the amends will take. That is for you, the community, to decide. There need to be consequences for what I did. A common proposal has been a temporary ban from the Discord or the entire PPC community for some length of time. I can't say that wouldn't be an appropriate thing for me to do.

I'm a self-imposed ban (one that, in future debates, could be counted as a ban) from at least the chat if not the whole PPC so I can reflect on my actions in this entire mess. Could y'all please suggest an term? I can't seem to decide what would be a fitting one.

Additionally, several people have reminded us that a permanent ban has, in the past, been reserved for those who are so detrimental to the continued healthy working of the community that their presence will tear the place apart. They haven't been, and I understand, weren't meant to be, a penalty for a first offense by a PPCer who was otherwise in good standing. Is my mistake so terrible a sin that I should be cast out forever? Am I so beyond redemption that I can't be allowed here? Please tell me if you think that, I would like to know where I stand.

There are a few additional things I'd like to point out.

First, I would like to note that this is a much harsher range of proposed responses than were proposed when Matt Cipher harassed July about returning to the Discord. In that case, Matt apologized and resigned his power over the Discord server. To my knowledge, no one called for Matt to be banned. Could we, while voting on this, clarify if the reason for this is that my conduct was so much worse than Matt's or if it's because we have decided to get tougher on wrongdoers? I think answering that question will help the PPC make these decisions in the future.

Secondly, during this thread, there's been many mentions of witch-hunting and mob mentality. I would like to raise the possibility that many of the people involved in the doxxing, potentially including myself, are being unintentionally targeted by an angry mob. I think it's possible that the community, or some parts of if, want something, anything to be done, and my actions and the actions of others in the Discord have made us easy targets for collective anger. That's not saying I don't deserve to be punished for this, but could we all please take a moment to make sure I'm being punished with a clear collective head?

I would also like to ask that, since this is now a community vote, someone start making posts with tallies and such to make it easier to keep track of the status of the vote.

- Tomash

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