Subject: Mostly agreed with, but with a slight amendment:
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Posted on: 2017-03-19 02:42:00 UTC

Here's what I propose: Banning the people involved in the witch-hunt from the Discord for at least 1-3 months. This way, the people who weren't involved (like, say, Delta Juliette, Cat On The Keyboard, that one complete twerp called, er, Space Grape? Something like that...) aren't unfairly penalized for the actions of a few that they were, to pull an example completely out of nowhere, curled up under a duvet unable to stop shaking or crying because they were terrified their best friend didn't want them around any more. It also serves as a punishment directly related to their actions; if they can't be trusted to use an IRC channel properly and with respect for others, then they don't get to do so any more. I think that's fairer than, if you'll forgive the obligatory and slightly worn-out fandom reference, turning the Discord into a statue for three months.

Now it's my apology time.

I'm not a well person. I get extraordinarily defensive when I feel that my friends are being attacked. That's no excuse for what I've been saying to multiple people on the Board and Discord, none of whom deserved it. I'm sorry. I'm sorry I got so angry, and I'm sorry I didn't keep that anger under control. I should know better by now, but it doesn't appear that I do.

Given how I've comported myself recently, in multiple threads on the Board, I completely understand if people want to push for my being formally punished in some manner. All I want is to be a credit to this community, the community that gave me second, third, seventh, twenty-fifth chances, that picked me up and dusted me off when I fell off the anger wagon time and time again.

I have failed you.

Most of all, I've failed Ix.

By letting my anger rule me I have made things worse for them and I, I can't... I can't begin to express just how much of a stain upon the surface of the world that makes me feel. You're my best friend and I have let you down and forced you to defend me for... basically as long as we've been friends. I have let you down so, so often.

I'm sorry.

I want to fix it.

I don't know how.

I'm scared to find out.

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