Subject: I'm willing to apologize, but may I object just a little?
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Posted on: 2017-03-18 20:00:00 UTC
Not everyone who said anything in the disaster wanted to go through with the Board doxxing. I know didn't. I've said multiple times that I told Aegis via PM not to go through with posting the info on the Board unless it was really needed, with consent, and with all personal information obscured for safety. I had not, to my knowledge, seen any instance of the information in the screencap being called for. I knew it wasn't a good idea to have anything to do with that screenshot; what I didn't know at the time is that the Discord channel is as public as the Board because not only could people who have access pop in and see the screenshot simply by scrolling to the conversation date, but the invite is publicly distributed so that, well, anyone else could. I've stated several times that I cannot apologize enough for not taking action against Tomash, and for doing absolutely nothing about the screencap being put on the Discord in the first place, as hS noted. I'm a busy, busy person, I was working on proofreading multiple academic papers at the time, and my dad was sitting right behind me while all this was happening, so if he so much as glanced in my direction I could be in serious trouble. Hence my relative lack of activity compared to certain other members. I've realized since then that I should've just taken the risk and spoken up against the Discord doxxing in the first place. Hindsight is 20/20, I guess.
With that being said, I have already apologized to the Board at large for not acting when I should have - and for that matter, not directing the actions I did take at the source of the issue - and I am willing to extend my apologies to JulyFlame specifically for the same reason. So, I imagine, would everyone else you've listed who have to do the same thing.
What I am not convinced about, however, is the notion that outright banning a number of people for taking part in a single huge offense is the best choice, especially after they've admitted, repeatedly, that they feel genuinely guilty about their actions. Tomash has stepped down as a chat mod and apologized multiple times to the entire Board for this incident. Granz and Alleb have also stated that they feel awful and that they won't repeat anything even close to this. I believe their words and accept their apologies, but at the same time I do feel that just a simple warning might not be enough. Banning them from the entire PPC community, though, is probably going to do more harm than good, even if said ban is temporary. Even if it was for good reason, I believe it would send the wrong message to those who've just found us and taken a first glance at what's been going on. Permabanning Tomash, who has been apologetic about the doxxing ever since it was first pointed out, could give the impression that you're not willing to listen to his feelings and give him a second chance. The closest I can think of to a metaphorical slap on the wrist would probably be to temporarily kick him and the others who started and/or exacerbated this incident from the Discord, for the amount of time you've proposed for each of them, but still allow them to participate in the PPC community as a whole, thereby at least giving them a chance to learn from their collective mistake. I don't know what other people would think of this, but it's probably the best approach I can think of to penalizing the kickstarting of what was plainly a witch hunt (even if I didn't realize that it was at the time). I repeatedly stated that there was nothing any of us could do to make things better, and I should've added that rampaging after someone else as though they were some sort of scapegoat would ultimately result in a complete and total cataclysm for everyone concerned. I can personally attest to that, having been subject to a witch hunt at least once in the past, and I can say with confidence that we as a community can and should do better than to start anything even close to one.
Be that as it may, I've stated this before in the Discord chat, and I'll state it again here: I am very, very disappointed in and ashamed of this entire clusterflock and the current state of the community in light of it. I joined the PPC in the hopes that it'd be more welcoming than any previous online community I'd known, but my faith in it has been repeatedly shaken, though not yet broken, by things like this happening more than once. In the aftermath of this fiasco, a very small part of me wants to say that if it weren't for my PPC writing responsibilities and the fact that I've made a number of good friends here that I can only contact via the PPC, I'd have walked out on everyone else here without a second thought. It's only a very small part, though, and I know ragequitting would not be helpful to anyone when I , and everyone else, should be striving to make this community a better place for anyone who visits it. (I'm also going to take this moment to say that I'm not even close to interested in being a mod for the Discord channel, having read your earlier opposition to electing anyone who was involved in this mess to that position. I've been through multiple occasions that have demonstrated that I'd make a horrible admin, plus I don't have even half the time to manage the Discord chat when I have so many other things to do as it is.)
Still, we as a community are better than this. We should be, and I hope we can be in the future. As it stands, though, there's still a long way to go before we can repair the damage that's been done to our collective spirit over the past few months, especially the past few days. And honestly, I think it's probably for the better that I distance myself from this whole conversation until my input or intervention is needed. The longer I read this entire mess, the worse I feel.