Subject: My rambling, mostly-useless thoughts.
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Posted on: 2017-05-10 16:01:00 UTC

Ekyl: I refuse to comment on this behaviour, as it has been adequately covered elsewhere. There is also a simple conflict of interest in that I don't actually like him.

Nord Ronnoc: I don't know about the other two charges here, but I can definitely by the harassment charge. I distinctly remember Nord badgering people heavily on the Discord to look through his milsci Mass Effect fic and offer concrit; indeed, I offered some of my own over voice chat, even though I was at pains to point out that that sort of fiction is very definitely not my wheelhouse. I don't think it was entirely malicious, instead merely an overzealous approach to acquiring concrit from disinterested parties.

Granz: This was a stupid idea, as anyone who remembers PPC2 can tell you about. This was really, really dumb to anyone who remembers that part of history. Granz didn't. He wasn't around for any of that, and neither was I, and all I had to go on was various cryptic messages from people like JulyFlame and Desdendelle and VixenMage and other oldbies. This isn't to defend his actions; however, again, I don't think this was actively malicious. If memory serves, and it may well not, Granz was trying to prove a point to counter Desdendelle's little "ban everyone who has said the word Discord since last August" temper tantrum, that being that a mass ban would simply cause the community of those banned to reform their own discord and associate with each other like that. This was a stupid thing to do, but I think longstanding Boarders with long memories of the various drama outbreaks that happened here let their alarm bells ring a little too hard.

NeshomehS: "[T]he reason it looks like Neshomeh and I always get our way is because we're actually willing to speak up." A reason. Not the only one. Newbies see oldbie posts less as invitations to dialogue and more as pronouncements from on high; by way of evidence, I ask you to think about the awe you felt when a PPC BNF was talking to you eeeee back when you both first joined. This isn't your fault, nor is it entirely your problem, but it's something we all need to bear in mind.

The Discord Hive: Witch-hunting was and remains deeply wrong. We are not in the business of conducting ideological purges. That said, I don't think this was anything other than an angry mob. Outrage happens in fits and starts, it burns brighter than the stars... but then it fades away, leaving ashen resentment in its stead, and all those involved saw that it was wrong and wanted to return to how things had normally been. Therein lies the biggest problem with the PPC community; it is not our willingness to make the place a garden, but wishful thinking saying that it already is. This is something that we need to combat, far more than any Culture Of Bullying.

And Finally, Me: I get frustrated very easily; as I have often pointed out to myself and to others, that is a reason for my actions, not an excuse. Between the stupid drama on the Board and my paranoia flaring up like a dying sun (it is triggered by, of all the stupid things, my parents' house), I have not been in a charitable mood. Recusing myself from this discussion was mostly based on not wanting to say anything I regretted; this was an act of cowardice and one totally at odds with my goals of giving this all a positive outcome. The simple fact of it is I didn't want to engage with this side of the community. I'm more comfortable on the fringes and in the peanut gallery. This is cowardice. This has to stop. But it probably won't, because behaviours have inertia just like masses do.

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