Subject: It's a combination of things for me.
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Posted on: 2017-05-01 23:26:00 UTC

Firstly, I'm horrible at reading comprehension, my own writings aside. Whenever I read anything with walls of text I tend to remember only the beginning and ending bits without really digesting the middle so effectively. It's a thing I've been trying to remedy for a while now but if I end up not being able to properly comprehend something super-important unless I really have to force myself to do so, I doubt I'd be able to provide an objective response.

Secondly, I'm horrible at group discussions. The one time when I stirred up drama with a group of people on DeviantArt once is proof of that, but so is the fact that when I jump into a conversation, I sometimes get so overtaken by my own emotions that I say the wrong thing at the worst possible moment. It hasn't happened all the time here on the Board, but it has enough that I've become reluctant to speak up. Especially since a lot of people have already worded things better than I could given what little time I have.

Thirdly and finally, I'm horrible at my time management. My family has very strict procedures with policing our leisure time because we're fast approaching the age when we can't rely on our parents' health insurance, mortgage, etc., and that means our parents are dead-set on making us good at doing grown-up things. Between that and my part-time job AND looking for full-time employment, I have very little time and resources to spare in any online conversation no matter how much I want to join (which I desperately want to, given that the incidents that have been plaguing us so far these past few months have affected everyone and I doubt just standing by would be the right thing). I've been pulled from online communities by my family for getting caught up in heated situations before - I was forced to take a hiatus from DeviantArt during the late stage of my graduate term because I accidentally told my dad about the aforementioned drama there, for example.

I fully acknowledge how important this conversation is, and I'll leave thoughts on specific topics later, but I'm hesitant about being involved for the above reasons even though I KNOW I should be regardless. I'm guessing a lot of people feel the same way for similar reasons, but to this I'd advise that it isn't a bad thing to speak up while you have the chance. Every little statement adds to the discussion and the broader the scope of the conversation, the better a general picture we can get and the closer we'll be to a general resolution to the problems at hand.

-SkarmorySilver, who's just gotten back from work, is tired, and is still being asked by his dad to practice Python because that's always fun.

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